Haha..such a lame title. Everyone's been asking me to update..so..i update la. I still have nothing to say..and i dun feel like telling you people bout my church camp..eheh..ok ok..maybe i'll tell you bout the last night where they make us cry. Umm..after all those..boooorriinnngg sessions..there was another session..the last session for that day..bout..9 sumtin. Didn't really expect much from that session..i was halfway falling asleep. lolz. Nways, the facilitator switched off the lights..and started telling us bout how much our parents loved us..and they played a really slow song by Rod Stewart "Have i told you lately that i love you" It changed the entire atmosphere. We were asked to close our eyes..and think of our parents..After a while, i could feel tears forming in my eyes..I was like "oh no..." Edwina looked at me and said "Damn..i hate this!" haha..Nearly all the girls were crying..they weren't sobbing away...yet..but each of us had tissue in our hands. Then, our own group facilitator gave us letters from our parents. Each parent were supposed to write a love letter to their children..and by the time i got mine..the song played was "You raised me up" by Josh Groban. I couldn't stop crying..hehe..seriously. I didn't even dare to open the letter yet..I mean..how many parents actually write letters to their children. After we got our letters, we were suppose to go to a place by ourself with no one beside us and read the letter..I chose the canteen. There was absolutely no way i would wanna stay in the hall. The "sad, slow" songs were still playing..and it will only make things worst for me. While going down the stairs, they were like loads of people sitting there..crying..while those facilitators came with boxes and boxes of tissues. Even those guys who are known for being naughty and trouble makers in the class seemed completely changed. I sat near the canteeen gate..and opened my letter. Then, somebody came up to me and gave me tissue..After reading it, we're suppose to reply..and..i wrote a 2 page long letter. Those facilitators there kept coming to me and offered me tissues..i dun remember how bad i cried..but i'm sure i finished half a box of tissue. I think i was the last to finish writing my letter.By then, i was quite calm already..still sniffing away..but not that bad. I walked back to the hall..and this facilitator..came up to me and gave me hug..and she said something most people would say "It's ok...everything's ok..." HUH?!ahhaah..right..that was quite comforting at that time. Hugs do work you know. When i was in the hall, there were a lotta people there edi. All wif solemn faces..and people still giving out tissues. They were still playing the songs..which made me start crying all over again..but it was one of the nicest song i'd heard in camp.."Just let me say" by United Live

Just Let Me Say

Just let me say how much i love You
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live in the shadows of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face

And the earth will shake as Your word goes forth
And the heaven will tremble and fall
But let me say how much i love You
Oh my Saviour, my Lord and Friend

Just let me hear Your finest whisper
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your sprit's flame

Let me find You in the desert
Till this sand is Holy ground
And i am found completely surrendered
To You, my Lord and Friend

So let me say how much i love You
Will all my heart i long for You
For i am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You

And the depths of grace
The forgiveness found
To be called a child of God
Just makes me say how much i love You
Oh my Saviour, my Lord and Friend

Sweet..isn't it? You wanna know something??Your emotions really control the way you write a letter and express yourself..cos after i wrote the letter and hand it in..the next day..i was wondering "Why on earth did i write that?" haha..more to come..but..that's another story..
Bye folks!!hehehehe...i updated!!!

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Hello!i've been missing for quite a long period of time..ehehe..Anyone miss me? Right..i shall not get to perasan. I've been really busy the whole holiday..My grandma and cousing came over from Taiping..so, had to bring them out. Went to Seremban on Sunday..and surprisingly my mum said that we dun need to stay there. ( dun really like it there..) Asked my mum whether i could go for the dorm leaders meeting on Monday..but she said we're going somewhere else. Guess what? In one week..i went to nearly all the shopping malls in the Klang Valley..not really all..but the popular ones. Lemme try to list them down. Ermm..

1.Berjaya Times Square
2.Sg.Wang
3.Lot 10
4.Midvalley
5.Amcorp
6.Atria
7.1U

I guess that's all..met Stef in 1U today..who else ar..saw Twinkle there too!!..Pn. Mary Ann..Valerie..can't remember..quite a lot..Oh yah!Christine was there too!!..*grins* I'll be going for camp tomorrow..(hopefully i won't get homesick..it's been long since i last went anywhere w/o my mum..) Dunno what to bring for angel and mortal..my bag's packed at least..Laura hasnt packed her stuff yet..and she's still online..and it's 7.00 now!! haha...my grandma and cousin going back tomorrow also.

Woohoo!!! Exams over..quite hyper now. Umm..Juwita, i dunno whether you're still reading this blog..but if you are..then..umm..remember the time you commented in one of my post..and ask me to try to be honest with God? I did or..i think i did...and..umm..it did work a while..but after that, everything was back to square one..hmm..i guess there's something wrong with me. =0
I got my add maths resuts back..haih..sad case man..i can never seem to pass add maths. Oh well..it's the second add maths paper i ever sat for..so, i guess i must pull up my socks..hehe..But for now, i'm practically grounded from any activities..dunno whether my mum means it or not..hopefully she'll forget it if my other results are good...so, pray for me yah? =P

Gosh! I'm so irritated. I got accused for something i didn't do at all!!!!!!! So frustrated right now! I wasn't even using the computer at all earlier..and my mum said i was. She said my grandma called and my phone was engaged..and when she picked up the phone to check..there was this noise or sound...whateva..which could be heard everytime i use the internet. I swear to God i didn't even touch the keyboard!!!! THIS IS SO UNFAIR!!!!!! I kept telling her that i didn't use at all..Then, when i just switched on the comp, she came in and said "Next time you better not lie to me" i was like "what the heck?" i told her i didn't use the damn bloody freaking computer..and i wasn't lying at all!! I hate being accused!!!!!SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO??????????????????????????????????????????????//

For all you people who
say, "I love you"
when
you have no clue what love is exactly!!!
Something to ponder upon...

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing
and
is your voice caught within your chest?? -It
isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of
her/him -
It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her/him off?
? -
It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's/
he's
there?? -
It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her/him because it's what
everyone
wants??
It isn't love, it?s LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she/he kissed you,
or
held your hand?
It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her/him confessions of love,
because you don't want to hurt her/him?
It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her/him because the sight of
her/him makes your heart skip a beat??
It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care
about
her/him?
It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her/him every day she is the only
one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite
things for her sake?
It isn't love, it's CHARITY.

===================================
==

Does your heart ache and break when she's
sad?
Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for her/his pain, even when
she's/he's strong?
Then it's LOVE.

Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and touch
your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding,
incomprehensible
mix of pain and relation pulls you close and
holds you to her/him?
Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her/his faults because it's a
part
of who she/he is?
Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with
her/him faithfully without regret??
Then it's LOVE.

Would you give her/him your heart, your life,
your death??
Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why
do we love?
Why is it all we search for in life? This pain,
this agony? Why is it
all we long for? This torture, this powerful
death of self? Why?
The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE. It
is
such an addictive thing that even people who
are
not having it wish to experience it and share it
with
others as well.

Pass this to all your friends so they don't
make
the same mistake with their LOVE LIVES!!
I like the dreams of the future better than the
history of the past...

Love hurts our feeling, but it's also the reason
our soul heal...

Hey hey hey!!! The Celcom thing is finally over!! We practiced the whole day today..so i had to skip bio. Oh well, at least now i can go for classes without anyone making anouncement or calling me to go for meetings. ahhaa..The presentation started at 4..umm..on time..no malaysian timing for once. Everyone was all so scared..It didn't go out that bad after all. In fact, the judges were really impressed by our presentation. That's what they said..and i hope they mean it. Err...There is some possibility that our skewl made it to the top 2 in Selangor..i'm not sure la..but they do sound like we got through it. Well, i shall not jump to conclusions yet. Dun wanna be disappointed in the end right?haha..This was the first time i heard the whole presentation..and i actually wanted to laugh. Everything that was said was actually fake. I know the accounts was fake..that's something i'm sure of..since i'm the one who did it..it's not all fake la..just a bit of details changed. But they said that the guest artistes was provided with drinks and food...yeah right. How funny...no one bothered about them..They said there was a waiting room for the VIP's and those artistes..err..that was fake..hahah..they didn't even sign the guest book...hahah..Aiyah..dun care liao..i guess it's just to make things look nicer..and besides, this was our first time organizing this whole thing...=P I'm glad that the judges were impressed... =P

Hey hey! I didn't go to skewl today. ehehe..tired la. The Celcom Presentation's tomorrow. And the dungu teacher wants me to find a prefect attire. What?! haih..what difference would it make whether the whole team wears prefect attire or not. If our presentation is not good, there's no use either. Hoping everything will turn out well tomorrow. Then, i'm free!! From one burden..ahah..my next burden is exam. AIKS! Haven't started studying yet either. May 16th. *slices throat* Oh..besides the Celcom Presentation, we're having CG tomorrow!! The topic's about wisdom. At first, it's about time management..but changed edi. Thank goodness it's not time management..hehe..my time management really out wan. Wisdom..ok la..can survive. Did my homework yesterday edi..so i know what i wanna say. haha..Here's a picture of my baby niece..cute anot??Took this pictures during CNY i think..back in my hometown..The first picture is Rachel..and the second picture is Michelle and Rachel.

- Melissa - wrote:
> 1) Name the Last Three Things U Have Bought?
> > My 2nd "Through the Rain" CD
> > A film
> > 2 new blouse
>
> 2) Name two things you usually drink?:
> > Water
> > Milo
>
> 3)Last Time You Cried?? why?
> >May 1st..during the Heal the Nation concert. Dunno why. Felt a lil burden on that day.
>
> 4)What's In Your CD Player ?
> > Brand New World, Juwita Suwito

> 6)What Time Did You Wake Up Today ?
> > 6:15
>
> 7)Current Hair?
> > long. straight.
>
> 8)Current Clothes ?
> > Shorts and T shirt
>
> 9)Current Desktop Picture?
> > A picture from Oops Asia
>
> 10)Current Worry ?
> > Exams
>
> 11)Current Hate ?
> > People who don't keep their promises.
>
> 12)Favorite Place To Be?
> > Some place quite and peaceful
>
> 13)Least Favorite Place?
> > too noisy places
>
> 14) If You Could Play An Instrument?
> > i can play piano and guitar..but i wanna improve in guitar though.
>
> 15)Favorite Color(s)?
> > Pink, blue and purple
>
> 16)How tall Are You?
> > 5 feet 3
>
> 17)Current Favorite Word? Words?
> >Huh?What?Gosh!
>
> 18)One Person From Your Past You Wish You
> Could Go Back And Talk To?
> > Past? huh?
>
> 19)Favorite Day?
> > dunno..everyday seems like a dread.
>
> 20)Where Would You Like To Go?
> > No where..The Mustard Tree? Never went to that place before..but my mum dun wanna go there..
>
> 21)Where Do you want to live when you get
> married?
> > dunno yet..
>
> 22)Favorite food?
> > japanese.
>
> 23)Color of most clothes you own?
> > black and pink..hahaha
>
> 24) Number of pillows you sleep w/?
> > 2
>
> 25)What do you wear when you go to sleep?
> > depends on my mood
>
> 26)What were you doing 12AM last night:
> > homework
>
> 27)How old will you be in 10 yrs:
> > 25
>
> 28)What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?
> > my future's in God's hands..but i guess i'll probably be working.
>
> 29)Are you paranoid?
> > sometimes
>
> 30)Do you burn or tan?
> > tan.
>
> 32)what is the brand of your wallet?
> > Bodyglove
>
> 33)Your alarm clock?
> > Black and grey a lil..but it has red light..it's a radio actually
>
> 34)Your hair?
> > black..straight
>
> 35)First real memory of something?
> > Don't remember
>
> 36)First piercing/tattoo?
> > forgot. kindergardent
>
> 37)First enemy?
> > Zahreen!! gosh..she was terrible..
>
> 38)best cry?
> > is there such thing? I cry alot
>
> 39)Last library book checked out?
> > Haven't been to a library for a long time
>
> 40)Last person you yelled at?
> > Don't remember...i rarely yell..unless i'm really irritated.
>
> 41)Last beverage drank?
> > Nutriegen
>
> 42)Last crush?
> > hehe...
>
> 43)Last CD/song played?
> > Through The Rain CD/Only in the Dark
>
> 44)Last thing you ate?
> > um. my lunch..rice
>
> 45)Last annoyance?
> > hmm...dunno
>
> 46)Last disappointment?
> > today
>
> 47)Last thing written by hands?
> > going to write an english essay..but for now..it'll be chemistry
>
> 48)Last person talking to?
> >My mum..
>
> 49)Last ice cream eaten?
> > Last week

> 50)Last person u miss?
> > Someone..not a guy..
>

Yeap, that should be my topic. I dunno what to say actually. Well, my cousin kinda backslidded..and i dunno how to talk to her about it. She's in US..and i think she was swayed by the lifestyle there. She just didn't trust God anymore..and i didn't ask her why. My aunty said it was because God doesn't answer her prayers. So, i told one of my fren about it..and my fren talked to her. THe next thing i know, my family said i have fanatic friends..and they dun like me joining CF in my school. I didn't know what to do or what to say. I just treat it like nothing ever happened. My mum doesn't really care about me joining CF as long as I'm not to active...but after listening to my aunty, i think it kinda hit her that i might be badly influenced. sigh. Nways, after what happened, i ask my fren to stop talking to my cousin..and i avoided talking to that friend also. Don't ask me why. I have no idea either. I was scared that i couldn't join CF. I mean, it's not really that great joining CF..i guess it was cos i have lotsa friends there..and it's something i'm active in..since i'm not active in church. The topic about religion didn't come out when i talked to my cousin..until last Friday. While talking, suddenly, i felt this urge to ask her whether she still trust God. She said she prays..sometimes..and at the end of it..she thinks that she's gone nuts and stuff like that. She asked me what if there isn't a God..and she still feels lonely. She says God doesnt' help her..all this while, she's been helping herself. When i told her the usual phrase that "God does things according to his time" all she said was "Yeah, yeah, yeah" I know she thinks i'm the holy holy type. And all of a sudden, i felt scared..maybe fear of rejection and something else. I was scared to share about God with her. but, i continued on..i asked her what proof does she have to say there's no God..She asked me back "What makes you think there's a God?" I told about God answering our prayers..even small tiny ones..just that we don't notice it. After that, she changed subject..haih..i can't believe that someone who was once so active in church and so willingly served God will all her heart could end up like this. She's telling me about being influenced n stuff like that..i think that she's more influenced than i am. When i'm with her, sometimes i feel like i'm being more like her. Not that she's bad or what..it's just that i dun wanna be that "weird holy" person. I know i should stand up for God..but i'm rather unstable now. Doubts here and there..but there seem to be no one i can approach....or trust...fear is what grips me now..